Hujan dan Kertas

putri malam, lelah asa menapak senja

mengejar pelangi tanpa kata-kata

bila sang bulan tak mampu membaca

berkata bintang fajar terlalu indah

maka,sudahi saja lari sang dinamika

biarkan bintang tetap melihat di ujung antariksa

dan biarkan hari berlalu mengerjap mata

sehingga engkau tak lagi sendiri dalam malam

karena cahaya sang bintang

akan lama sebelum akhirnya sampai

dan benar-benar menerangi malam

tersadar dan pada saat yang sama

sang bintang telah menjadi supernova

 

 ajie

bandung, 23 oktober 2010

00.23 WIB

dia tetap akan selalu tersenyum
tersipu dengan sapaan malam
menegasikan dingin hujan menjadi derasnya nyanyian
oh! tatkala andromeda menyembunyikan surga
sudah ku melangkah ribuan cahaya
sudah ku melihat sedari dulu
dan ratapan bumi takkan bisa terdengar hingga galaksi sana
oh, galaksi indah yang berada dalam gelap
yang menghanyutkan asa dan membuai dengan keheningan
kegelapan yang bercahaya, kerling manis para bintang
mengingatkan secercah mimpi yang hilang
oh, bulan yang tersembunyi
tak dapatkah sedikit bahasaku kau mengerti
karena bila bias kata-kata tak luput dari tarian jari,akankah kau mengerti?
oh bulan yang bersembunyi


Aji
Bandung, 20 Oktober 2010
3.05 AM

langit biru, sore ini hujan kembali datang
dengan jutaan tetes kenangan ia menghujam
senja tadi tidak lagi temaram; ada sebuah penyesalan
dan dirimu tidak lagi benderang; hanya kelam
dua ribu kata-kata tak mampu memberikan bahagia
saat bintang senja tetap memberikan sinarnya, engkau menolak
karena persepsimu tak mampu memberikan cahaya yang sama
ketahuilah, tak pernah sedikitpun ia mengharap cahaya
bintang senja takkan jemu dan gusar, walau temaram tetap kelam
begitulah adanya; hanya pendar tulus
dan itu aku

malam biru, biarkan aku merindu!
walau luka terperi adalah obat jitu
satu sudut di langit itu adalah dirimu
tak mungkin untuk bulan sekalipun mengganggu
satu sudut dari luasnya alam semesta
sebuah cerita dari putaran roda dunia
akan selalu ada, tak peduli waktu dan ruang
maka percayalah, pendar itu tetap akan disana
menemani udara malam tanpa pernah berkata-kata
biarkan saja, diriku dan dirimu
saling menyapa sekejap untuk kemudian berpisah alur waktu
siang, dan malam
karena itu malam biru
biarkan aku merindu!

aji
9 Oktober 2010
3:45 am

gadis jeruk, waktu telah menjawab
begitu banyak pertanyaan tentang fana dan impian
mengajarkan akan arti setia
layaknya bumi yang selalu berputar
layaknya sinar matahari di kala pagi
layaknya bulan dan bintang yang bersinar
seperti malam ini
yang akan selalu terulang, walau terkadang badai datang
mungkin fajar nanti membawa kabut tebal
dan sang putri malam hanya bisa mengintip dari balik awan
namun ketahuilah, ia selalu melihat bumi seperti itu
selama jutaan tahun yang berlalu
maka begitu pula diriku dan dirimu

gadis jeruk, malam ini akan usai
mentari telah beranjak
dan percakapan kita akah berakhir
ku akui satu hal, embun pagi ada di mataku
karena bulir-bulir air lembut itu telah lama hilang
dan yang tersisa hanya sebuah lilin hijau yang menyala
yang telah menyala selama 5 tahun putaran semesta
malam ini akan segera habis; api yang dihembus angin pun tergetar
tetapi, ruang yang telah tercipta akan selalu ada
dan mungkin suatu saat tetesan air akan kembali memenuhi dahaga
lima dinamika manusia
dan jalan setapak yang telah dilalui
suatu saat mungkin akan kembali
hanya, mungkin.

gadis jeruk, telah habis waktuku bercerita
bab terakhir dari coretan-coretanku
yang telah kutulis selama empat tarian bintang
harapanku hanya satu; untuk kau mengerti
apa keinginanmu dan tujuanku
karena kita telah beranjak dewasa
dan memilih jalan setapak yang kita jejak
dan berjalan di malam sepi
hingga saatnya nanti, suatu hari
bulan dan bintang kembali menemani malam
saat kabut perlahan pergi


*saat berjalan bersama bukan lagi jawaban, berjalan pergi adalah pilihan

 Ajie
9 Oktober 2010
5am

let asleep dear fairy
thy shoulders begin to weary
the precious light, the moon
high on the sky she waits dawn
the nightbugs, the dances they do
mesmerize the lofty night's surrounds
hear the owl sings, a lullaby
a tale of life and bravery

close thy eyes, let asleep dear fairy
thy wings are broken for now
rest awhile, thou shall fly tomorrow
once again, embrace breezing winds

so let asleep dear fairy
nightwatch shall be mine
reast assured and feel no weary
upon thy peaceful smile
the lofty night shall remains
the bright yellow, the sun
shall greet a shiny sunrise
while thou, dear fairy, awakened at dawn


 ajie 
October 4th, 2010
02.28 Am

hello february i miss your bright sanctuary
greenish yards and blooming roses
cocoons are empty; butterflies have left their hideouts
and they're dancing beautifully
and birds are singing, as warm yellow slowly lighten the athmosphere
band of horses triumph on the horizon
and melting ice is being a rivers of flowing fresh water

i'm always attached to february
its morning leaves a deep trace somehow, always
like eagles which always go back to its nest after a day's hunting
wherever they may go
it's like footsteps to home
calming, yet astonishing
and there's always a warm feeling
during february
perhaps, it is home
perhaps, i'm already home.


ajie
October 2, 2010
9.56 AM

thou whose story i shall remember

will you ever be cured from all those bittersweets?

like reddish orange sunrise, perfectly awaken from night

a bright morrow, that is

grasp thy air-bubbles

wield thy red vest

and sharpen thy pointed-glasses

a hope clings now, there is

shaken, and yet to bloom

like a fluttering hackney carriage

ever since the horse broke free

let it open, unlock thy red-brick door

and i will offer the four season day

 

Ajie

September 29, 2010

1:32 AM

turn away and go blind

polluted by past occurences

and headache distorting my mind

i shall seek no further, i shall forget every experiences

the clear blue sky still here

chapters of the book i feel

shall be re-written under its dusky pages

and forever shall remain, encrypted caligraphy of the neverland’s sunset

 

 ajie

June 25, 2010

2.07 AM

can we actually really hate each other without any compassion?

since there’s killing everyday, hatred spread everwhere, so i simply ask.

even if we are the endanger species (like what some scientists believe, “no aliens!”).

so is it pointless to reach a peace? oh i’m sorry, people hate that word.

“peace’s only for weaklings!”, or perhaps “we want peace, but they started first!”

hating and blaming and hardening self position and ignore negosiation,

to what extend?

then perhaps, it should have been no “we”, just me, you, or them.

 

can we actually shake hands without fake intention?

to make the world a less dangerous one for our children, if not for ours.

or has our anger taken away our love for the little ones?

perhaps what’s wrong is not in our heart.

perhaps, it’s only our ego that stops us from seeing each other’s heart.

oh, too many perhaps, and the clock’s still ticking

and there are still people dies.

hunger, refugees, environmental problems, trafficking, health.

so many problems for mankind, yet here we are, arguing about which one’s the best.

what’s the point of being the best, if there’s no more life to live?

 

can we actually see others and say,

“you are my friend, whoever you are, wherever you come from, whatever religion you believe.”

“because after all, we’re still humans with hearts inside us.”

 

 ajie 

June 24th, 2010

3.42 AM

with her by my side

i shall dance until there’s no fight

and the world shall be in peace

merry in joyfulness, cherishes the bliss

 

with her walks beside me

green grasses shall bloom the flowers

shadowy night sky shall be full of stars!

and we could walk on the romantic charles bridge

at night

 

with her in my mind

there are oceans so far away to stare

there’s a longing for the journey ahead

and it will be here, stays for minutes to fade into ageless circle

until there’s no more distance, only heart to remember

 

 ajie

June 23, 2010

0:57

and this life is mere a sojourn place

of deep breath and devious races

we shall dance to this chance

take me by surprise!!

hear those siren of ambulance ring

please damage no more, for i shall not sink

tear falls down inside, unable to think

but wail no misery, for only this time we sing

and contradict the verses, O mankind

be merry

be happy

be full in life

as time keeps on going

and we keeps on aging

delight the present, the “in between”

for this is where we live

 

 ajie 

May 18th, 2010

01.36

of brick walls and sturdy rocks

i was made

to challenge the dubious timeline

to unravel complicated plans

and finally, to witness a magical end

oh, i plead the innocence!

wild imaginations and straightforward intentions

toast to our freedom!

let’s drink it, sip it, swallow it as a whole!

let’s dance under this shady moon!

let’s sing the merry!

let’s celebrate life!

 

 ajie 

May 15th, 2010

22.50

Night is the lofty image of continuous pivotal universe. Night describes, inspires, and provides lots of things,thus making miraculous events to happen. There is a deep silent within this phenomenon. A deep, black silentness that is hardly matched by any other natural phenomenon. Silentness, that doesn’t kill us, rather surviving mankind.

It is human nature to be afraid of the dark. Yes, it is human nature to be intimidated by quiet stillness. But to be afraid means to be blessed by feelings. In fear, mankind tend to reach its peak potential of living. Because we are afraid of the dark, we found how to create fire, thus allowing us to invent lights. Because we are stressed by raging natural disaster we’ve been evolving from one civilization to the next step of humanity. Because, a boy’s fear of losing his girl allowing him to write heart-melting poems. And, because of our fear towards unexpected life we are learning lessons of life we’ve had before.

To be blessed to see every night is different, is not something everyone has. People tend to sleep it off, waiting for the sun to rise by being inactive, while there are millions stars in the skies at night. Human’s perception of the dark, which is brought by night, creates a habitual ritual to sleep at night, thus making most of nights are spent worthless. Not exactly without gains, but surely we, as humanity does all the time, couldn’t even understand the beauty, the lofty, of nights.

But, as we know, there are nocturnals. People, like me, who are seeking the meaning of life through nights. I strongly disagree the dictionary’s concept of nocturnals. It is not mere an “active” rather stronger word should be used. I cant provide answers, for i am not an linguist. But one thing I know is, nights provide me with something sublime, something that its irregularities tend to confiscate me. I am in great awe of nights. Owls are singing. Moon is shining. Stars are winking their eyes, pretending to take me to a place that humanity has never experience before. Nights will always promise this one thing ; that its mythical yet seducing ambiences intrigue me, and those nocturnals, of nights where they actually live

ajie

October 28, 2009

3:07 AM

ah! how dreadful to feel discarded

entirely watching how the game’s been played

not a chance to do good, oh not a chance

do what you’re told, even if it’s not make sense

 

let alone the arising sun!

for there’ll be my cage for days to come

let me go away and i’ll stand on my feet

need no shelter, happiness is what i seek

 

now be free! be the one you feel!

chase the dream let it not slip away

cause if it’s away too far, it’ll be gone

be hurry! before the sun comes down

 

 ajie 

April 9 2010

1.26 AM

daydream delusion
limousine eyelash
oh baby with your pretty face
drop a tear in my wineglass
look at those big eyes
see what you mean to me
sweet cakes and milkshakes
i am a delusion angel
i'm a fantasy parade
i want you to know what i think
dont want you to guess anymore
you have no idea where i came from
we have no idea where we're going
lodged in life, like branches in the river
flowing downstream caught in the current
i carry you you'll carry me
that's how it could be
dont you know me?
dont you know me by now?

 

written by a bum along the danube river at night.

Vienna, 2010

let’s dance, folks or waltz on that ring

move your footsteps and let it swing

cause you fight with your heart and pride

O Cinderella Man, you make this right

O pride of New Jersey, we watch you struggle

so we light our hope, strapped our buckle

remember how you walked the dark alley

in the middle of winter in Jersey

it’s over! and so does the empty table

we survived the terrible and most horrible

O Bulldog of Bergen, you showed us hope!

to fight with pride and heart, not hanging rope!

 

 ajie

March 13, 2010

21.32

what is it behind a simple yet astonishing smile?

a cry, a laugh, a broken heart, a mask, a tearful of joy

a deep diving into core of the blackhole

a theory consisting of mysteries

oh deary me!

i am held hostage of these neverending blisses

quietly enchanting spells of sleeping galaxies

never rest, dont sleep till the sun shines

for i am the perceiver of thee!

 ajie 

March 9th, 2010

01.09 AM

sesalku mungkin hanya semu

terbaring dalam kabut kelam di matamu

tak mengapa, wajar adanya

namun satu hal yang perlu kamu tau

beban ini sudah kupikul lama setelah itu

dan permohonan maaf itu masih ada

tak lekang tak berkarat namun tumbuh

penuh duri ia menusuk namun tetap kupelihara

dan secercah asa yang masih kupendam

semoga ia takkan padam

 

 ajie 

19 februari 2010

00.11 AM

pagi ini tidak membekukan

hanya sekedar mendung berawan

sejuk yang menyenangkan

ah! secangkir kopi tentu ide brilian!

2 sendok gula tentu cukup

racikan ini racikan pagi hari

saat mentari masih malu-malu menampakkan diri

di tengah bulan februari

“selamat pagi!!”

 

 ajie 

18 februari 2010

08.05

bukankah sejarah adalah mawar?

menarik untuk dijalani dan dikaji

melihat kembali kebodohan dan berjanji

“takkan ku ulangi”

namun bukankah sejarah adalah prasasti batu?

tak terhapus tak lekang waktu

dan waktu itu hitungan bulan, kawan

dan waktu itu kejam; tetap tertusuk saat mata terpejam

setengah tahun yang lalu, mungkin lebih

bodoh yang dengan sadar dilakukan meski perih

saat waktu kemudian mengkonsumsi harapan

dan harapan berubah menjadi tawa

maka, ketika asa itu akhirnya ku bawa

kembali dari kubur, jauh dari kelam

masih adakah mawar itu untuk aku genggam?

 

 ajie 

18 Februari 2010

00.48 AM

meet me in your dream, lady in blue

as fading mists of Bromo, oh nothing is true

i was afraid of the dark, of the sorrow

as today is today, and there is no tomorrow

please be subtle, be gentle

be everything but disgruntle

be cherry, be happy

be the sun of this morning, lady

because the world is not eerie now

so you still can be my rainbow

out of shadow, where our paths may diverged

 

 ajie 

Februari 6, 2010

00.19 AM

oh mahasiswa

yang katanya generasi penerus bangsa

tapi dihimpit sana-sini tak bisa bersuara

sedikit teriak dicurigai anarki

tidak teriak dibilang golongan ideologi kiri

apalagi teriak keras, yaudah putus saja jadi mahasiswa

 

oh mahasiswa

menuntu ilmu saja makin susah

kos naik buat makan harga naik bensin juga naik

sayang ipk tidak naik-naik

mau kuliah kadang air ledeng tak nyala

rupa-rupanya pemadaman bergiliran instansi negara

sesampai di kampus berjumpa palang di tempat parkir

rupa-rupanya iuran semester masih tidak cukup, parkir pun harus bayar!

ternyata tidak boleh ikut ujian, iuran belum lunas

benar adanya peribahasa

“ilmu itu mahal, kawan!”

 

yasudah, sang mahasiswa berencana melihat nilai

oh ternyata komputer rusak, maklum, sistem operasinya DOS

tapi sang mahasiswa tetap bersyukur, teman fakultas sebelah tidak beruntung

papan pengumuman adalah satu-satunya sumber informasi nilai

tidak dipasang ya simpan penasaran sampai nanti dipasang

entah kapan

 

si mahasiswa lantas bertanya, ini jawabannya :

“diam sajalah,

toh dunia tetap berputar tak hiraukan nada sumbang

anda teriak saya diam lantas tandatangan surat peringatan

anda diam itu yang saya idam-idam”

 

akhirnya mahasiswa diam saja

hak diinjak-injak sudah biasa

“pengaruh lingkungan” katanya

“penuhi saja kewajiban, hak tak perlu hiraukan” sambungnya

tentu saja, ia sudah jadi apatis pragmatis atau entah apalah namanya

oh mahasiswa…

 

 ajie 

3 Februari 2010

00.40 AM

seperempat jam di suatu waktu siang ini

sepertiga hari kemudian masih tak layu tak jemu

sekilas saja tatapan mata anda dan saya

terpana, sekejap hilang sudah logika

tertutup dan terpenjara diam bersahaja

 

oh siapakah anda yang begitu mempesona?

menceriakan atmosfir dunia

dengan buaian sendu lembayung jingga

oh wahai wanita elegan, mungkinkah kita berkenalan?

tak harus kututup asa dengan pekat malam

walau fakta berkata kelam

 

 ajie 

29 desember 2009

00.12

berhentilah tertawa dan berhentilah berlari, kawan

karena sang waktu tidak kenal lelah

janganlah mengambil nafas terlalu lama atau berjalan terlalu cepat

sudah saatnya kita beranjak dan beriringan langkah

tak tentu jua kapan sampai tujuan

 

cukupkanlah membuang-buang kesempatan, kawan

karena dunia ini bukan milik kita

harapan bukanlah sebuah manis manja namun duri berbunga

terlena terlalu lama dan akhirnya hanya buih ombak semata

hilang sudah asa bila demikian

 

biarkanlah dirimu berjalan, kawan

karena ingatan masih memiliki kertas-kertas putih

bukankah membaca buku harus kita telusuri maju

lembaran demi lembaran?

dan usah kau ragu akan kesendirian

daftar pustaka masih jauh di ujung semesta

 

dan kita masih harus terus melangkah

 

 

 ajie 

January 20th, 2010

3.28 AM

like the sunrises of sunsets

this is it, put it all in a crate

this is it, a curced cirle of life

there is no other path regardless indefinite strives

always the same, o always the same

 

O fairies would thee not abandon

wailing wind cries and so this son

hopes suddenly disappear

bitter beer

a fear

and hundreds of sleepless winter

 

 ajie 

January05, 2010

03.01 AM